The following is a testimony I received the other day, and was given permission to share.
I wanted to take a minute and share with you something that happened over the last three months. I came to a place where I could no longer feel the tangible presence of God. After years of feeling His presence all the time, it felt as though His presence had left me. This experience took a toll on me (emotionally, mentally, physically, and spiritually). I felt as though I was alone.
I became very ill physically with severe high blood pressure, heart palpitations, and a weakening kidney. Getting out of bed every morning was becoming a struggle and though every test at the hospital they found that my body was so healthy and there was no reason for such sicknesses to ail me. The doctors could not figure out the cause and neither could I.
So after two and a half months of sickness, I declared "God, I cannot take this anymore." I hopped in my car and drove to the doctors saying "God, please give me a Christian doctor today!"...knowing that our clinic did not have Christian doctors. When I arrived, they sent me to the "new doctor," and, she was a Christian! After only a few minutes she diagnosed me with extreme separation anxiety which has caused my body into shock, which was beginning to shutting down my system. She asked if I had anyone close to me die; a husband, child, a parent, to which I responded "no," but at that moment, revelation came to me and I said to her, "No one has died but I have been feeling lonely, like I was in a black hole, cause I cannot feel God's Presence and I am grieved as though I have lost Him." At this point I began to cry.
Incredibly, the doctor ministered to me and for the first time in almost three months, I felt hope for my situation.
This experience has been one of the hardest of my entire Christian journey, more than any other trial, and when I got home I went to lie down, but this time God took me into a vision and showed me the purposes for this experience, and it blew me away and I began to cry with joy.
Jesus was holding my hand and He showed me that at the end of 3 months, I will begin to feel His Presence again through song. This is perfect because God knows how much I love to worship! Anyway, sure enough, He faithful to His Word, 3 months came and I was sung over by two different people who did not know what I was going through. I felt His Presence flood in so beautifully again in those moments and though it was short, it was so worth it! Like priceless treasure to me.
I have felt His Presence three times now and it increases each time. So yesterday, I listened to the the song 'Be Enthroned' from your upcoming album 'Anchor of Hope,' and I could barely keep myself from melting. I just began crying and I felt His Presence so so strongly and I could smell His fragrance in the room with me. Then last night I played your other clip Closer, on repeat for hours! Oh my goodness, the richness of His tangible Presence blew me away. I fell asleep in His Presence and Father God told me when I feel His Presence again it will be deeper than before, more intense and it would come again through song, and exactly that happened last night for me with 'Closer.'
I cannot tell you enough Coty, what this means to me! I know I am writing a novel here (LOL,) but everyone had wondered what had happened to me over the last three months; and now for the first time in such a long time I was soaking in His tangible presence for as long as I wanted. It wasn't momentary and wasn't just here and gone again, it lasted. I felt like a gift had been given to me. This means more to me than I can ever express. Thank you so much Coty. My relationship with Jesus, my intimacy with the Father has been my life and to feel Him again brings tears of joy even as I write.
Thank you again for your faithfulness to your call and your God given dreams. Our dreams are such a ministry to others.
Blessing to you!
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